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Where Did My Body Go?!?!? And What’s That Buzzing?!

Trust Yourself


My word for a beautiful and enriching weekend experience.

A word that fills me with trepidation and a thorny, trouble-hinting sensation that fills my head with word smack!


Mental Roadblock.

Sensation Obstacle.

Habitual Distraction.

Mind Tangles.

Addictive. Alluring. Familiar. Available.

Self  T R U S T

I found the place – the great big, brilliantly lit ballroom full of what pulls me away from what is possible. It is in this room that  I lose my body to all but a thrumming. All I can hear is the fear, doubt and excuses screaming across the surround sound that is my personal theatre.

I can carefully place my feet where I am sure they will not wobble. Nor will they grow stronger.

Safe and Sound and Small.

Dead Horses.

The demons can scream themselves hoarse. They’re only words. Merely images birthed by the past. Walk through them  – they fall away. They are only as real as I invite and allow them to be. Most of them don’t even belong to me; someone else’s baggage. And now mine – how sweet and generous.

Wait a minute.

Electric Color

ONLY mine if I agree and accept.

I don’t think I want to do that anymore.

I will trust myself…

to get it right

to get it right-ish

to get it wrong

to get it flaming, I-can’t-apologize-or-dig-my-way-out-of-this-one wrong

to have moments of brilliance

and moments of

more brilliance.

Yes, yes and moments of less brilliance.

Thank you Julie F for working the click out of me and thank you Jill for guiding me to empty.

There’s a Part Two coming…


Spine, Pelvis, 1st and 2nd Chakras, Trust, Safety, Stability and Touch.

Touch is a basic need for proper development. The need for touch does not end when we become adults.

We all need touch, but the way in which it is delivered and received becomes the differentiating factor.

Everything really does begin with touch. This was beautifully shared in the online offering by Deanna Piowaty, in her publication Combustus.

Ironically, touch is also strictly and stringently defined. One must read the PC manual before one steps into society – polite or otherwise. Who we touched is more strictly mandated than in the Victorian era.

I find it fascinating that those elements that are basic to our nature, and essentially necessary are what we seek to restrict and deem potentially dangerous. If we can control that which is most dear…

The fact that damaging touch is as prevalent as it is makes me question what we have chosen to control.

Healing Touch has been a part of our human culture possibly since “we”  were in caves. It is natural. for example. for mothers to touch their children often. It has been researched and proven that maternal touch plays an integral part in a child’s development. Children not touched enough experience a sort of abandonment. Lack of touch also affects the relationship that develops for the individual with his or her body. Physical armoring, which often occurs without a sturdy sense of safety and trust, can manifest as phantom pain, numbness and constant contraction of certain muscles.

When we have adequate touch, we feel that we can wander away without the fear of losing our source of love and safety. Trust is developed here.  When touch has been withheld, trust of the body through experience with mother is lacking and separation may never take place. A child deprived of enough touch may not go through individuation in which he or she becomes an entity unto him or herself.

When there is no trust the body in which we live, there is a tendency to become excessively intellectual. If the messages that came to me as a child that I could not trust what my body was telling me, then I may disconnect from my body and live my life in my head. Connecting to others may be very difficult for me as well.

The fact that there are so many touch-related healing methods is a testament to the importance of touch at all ages.

Touch can also be used as a learning tool to reconnect with the body as well as a way to communicate connection. What we touch we naturally give our attention to. When someone shares an experience with me that is painful my reflex is to reach out and touch them or to touch the area of my heart.

For myself, not only have I learned more about my anatomy and how this anatomy works through touch, but also extended that experience into relieving pain and healing – for myself and others.

We are all healers.