I am in post-training processing mode.
I can’t say that I have “completed” the second segment of my Feldenkrais Method training. I can’t say that because I will be integrating the information I received for a very long time.
Moving in my body is quite different than it was before I began on May 26.
My sense of myself is different – or as Moshe Feldenkrais would call it, my “self image” is different. How I perceive myself has changed.
My classes have changed. I don’t know if it’s noticeable to my students, but I am a different Nia teacher.
In the beginning of this training last October I wondered how I would integrate the Feldenkrais work with:
movement in daily life
familiar movement patterns in my Nia classes and my personal dance practice
With every dance practice and every class I gain a better understanding; I see and feel where the Feldenkrais work and my search become more connected.
An increased availability to myself.
I never really thought much about that. I reproduced movement. I did as I was told (mostly) – or I didn’t. I created and considered what I could do. What I can do and what is available to me are not the same thing. What is available to me is far more valuable and for me, a much more internal process.
to “listen” to my body with ears that haven’t “heard it all before”
to “hear” the blank spaces in my movements; the missing information
to “look” with eyes that are looking for habits and looking without contempt
to release the need to “know” why
to be aware that what I “know” and what I “believe” can be more of a hindrance than a help
to take pleasure in “I don’t know”.
About the places that move and let go more easily.
That I have the ability to choose what, until recently, did not seem available.
That I am developing an increased clarity of movement.
The increased clarity of my intention to move.