In a previous post, I wrote about BE-ing and creating a balance with DO-ing.
I am here to take my own advice and BE what I say. Walk the talk.
During the past month I have found myself in a mind jam. Much, much, much going on! Half a dozen projects to work on! (I do so love projects.) Music to map and choreograph, books to read, absorb and practice from, speeches to write , practice and deliver, 7 or 8 Nia classes to teach, blah, blah, blah. Oh, yea, and posts to write.
I’ve DONE all the above, except the one that requires stillness, quiet and rich introspect. That would be the post writing – just in case you weren’t sure!
Experiences whirling around me. Sensations rushing through me. Emotions heightened, speaking in clear voices and in voices I have to strain (or quiet) to understand. Discoveries arriving and departing without full and conscious acknowledgment. Yes, present to a conversation, but allowing it to be a filable item, not integrated.
All without gratitude.
Frankly, this past month has been a time management and organizational mess and I had to quiet myself in writing this to find the root of the “mess”.
I had to stop.
To Be in my life. To truly live my life.
Rather than the whirling, rushing, straining, striving, arriving, departing and general airport-ness of late, Stop.
Wait. In relaxed awareness. Listen. To what whispers. Look. And see. Be still. And be fully present.
How about those neutrinos?!
Feeling my own vibration; the rhythm that is my way to Be in my life. Inviting the rushing by to become a washing over – Be-ing in the moment, not watching its taillights.
The ability to multitask does not serve me here. Perhaps it is a skill best reserved for rare occasions. I touch many “things” but with no real sense of discrimination. I do not, can not see deeply. In the maelstrom I cannot learn. There is no receiving only an outpouring of energy.
Balance is not to be found in the constant outpouring of energy. Balance will be found in receiving so that I will not find myself gasping for air; weary in body, mind, spirit and emotions; overwhelmed by the smallest endeavors.
BE-ing. Nourishment for the whole self.